Monday, April 19, 2010

Good News

My body is responding to the meds for high blood pressure, which is great because what they're testing me for, renal artery stenosis, does not usually respond to medication. Still have the MRA this Friday though, so I'll know more next week.

I haven't been journaling much here because I've been doing a lot of the old fashioned journaling with paper and pen :) Sometimes, I feel like I censor myself here and I don't like it. In my old fashioned journal I can say whatever I feel at the time without judgement. It's nice. I keep it next to my bed. I journal when I'm happy, when I'm sad... when I find a quote I love, and when I need to vent. You know, whenever...

Joel says he doesn't read it, lol, but I always tell him I wouldn't mind if he did. Sometimes, I'll read him an old entry from when I was pregnant, or back when we were in high school and we were dating... (we're high school sweethearts, started dating when I was 15) and we laugh. It's funny reading my thoughts from back then.

But I don't like reading the entries when I was going through PPD... I look back and I just want to reach out and touch that person I use to be, and tell her things will go back to normal someday soon. They're really sad... I'm thankful I have them though, the entries, because it's easy to forget all that I went through. Depression is something I firmly believe you won't fully understand in less you've been through it. It's like a fog, and all you want is to be the old you. And I think it's something easy to forget like the pains of childbirth. You know it was horrible, but looking back it doesn't look so bad... but it was, your memory is just being kind.

I want to try to write more here again, it's nice having people comment and express their opinions too... and it's nice having the offline journal too, where it's just me and no comments :)

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Results & more waiting...

Test results came back and it was negative. I was having abnormal bleeding... they were worried I was having a miscarriage, or that I was currently pregnant. Turns out it was neither. Which is a relief. My blood pressure was caught by my midwife during my appointment to check out what was going on with me.

Yesterday I had a doctors appointment about the high blood pressure, I was put on BP medication and also since I'm so young, they did an EKG, ordered a few more blood tests, a urine test to check for protein and I'm also going in for an MRI next Friday. He seems to think this high BP is just a symptom of something else...

So more waiting and more results.

I haven't weighted myself in awhile so I did this morning, I'm down 7lbs! Which is great :) Who knows, maybe I just have crappy genes (my mother, father & older brother have high blood pressure) and this high blood pressure just needs to go down the natural way, by eating right, watching my sodium intake and losing some weight! I also just learned yesterday an old high school friend has high blood pressure like me and she's in the navy! So maybe it's not that uncommon for someone my age.

Thanks for the well wishes and thoughts! It really means a lot to me.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Waiting for the results...

Somethings are going on with my health right now. My blood pressure is through the roof and a few others things are being questioned. I've been put on a really strict diet, low sodium and basically an insulin resistance diet as well. Since I've found out, I've been sticking to it... I'm scared.

I'm suppose to have the results to a few tests in a couple hours, I'm nervous. It could be good news, bad news or nothing at all.
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