I feel like the rest of the world has moved on. I feel Joel has moved on. He won't talk about it with me, it's too painful for him. And I feel like my family and everyone else in my life has put this past them, but here I am, still bleeding. Still becoming emotional even when I don't expect it.
And I have yet to even count the months to when our baby would have been born. I don't think I can even bring myself to do that just yet.
I was just on facebook and saw the most beautiful baby girl swaddled in pink. One of my friends just had a baby and posted a new photo of her.
I just can't believe this happened to us. I can't believe this happens to anyone.
Guess I just needed to talk... to write... to let it out...