I didn't want the chronicles of my life to involve this struggle. I don't want people to associate me with a struggle with weight loss.
But it is who I am. It is a struggle I deal with daily. It is a part of me. I feel like it's like an alcoholic blogging and ignoring their biggest struggle in life. It seems wrong. Almost fake.
So this is me saying I have a problem. A problem most Americans do face. I'm slowly killing myself. That is my reality. And if I don't fix this now, I will end up having a heart attack, stroke, diabetes or cancer.
I feel like a horrible example to Jack. I want more for him. I don't want to pass my struggle onto him.
My whole life I have struggled with weight issues. In high school, I lost a huge amount of weight, only to gain it back when I got married.
Since I had Jack my weight has went up and down and it fluctuates not by single digits but by 10lbs or more constantly. It is consuming. It is always in the back of my mind.
I want to win this battle. I want to be the role-model I need to be. I need to hold myself accountable, and I know it's a lifestyle change I have to make. It's going to rock every aspect of our life.
So this is me saying I want better for us.
I don't want to blog about this, it's embarrassing, but I think holding myself accountable like this is a huge step in the right direction.
Change is good.
I'll be blogging occasionally on this subject. Just bare with me...
"It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver."