Thursday, January 12, 2012

I was hoping to write this post one day.

A lot of my posts from December are encrypted with worry and doubt...

she's all laid up in bed with a broken heart...

I wrote these when I knew we were pregnant, but I didn't know if it was another ectopic pregnancy.

Everything was happening as it did last time; negative pregnancy tests and then positive the next week.  I wanted so badly to just talk it out, but Joel's not the talking type when he's genuinely upset.  We were both hurting.  We were keeping it a secret too so it was extra hard.  Why do we do this to ourselves?

The thought of another day like this, killed me.

I posted this music video when I really needed him, but I didn't know how to say it...

I was in the bedroom when I heard him play the video.  I heard him slowly get up and come into our room, and he gave me a hug and I just sobbed.  It was exactly what I needed.  God, just writing it here makes me cry.  It was everything I needed.

Now here we are around four or five blood tests and two ultrasounds later... with a normal pregnancy.  I have morning sickness like a mother (pun intended) so I know my body is doing what it's suppose to.

We can finally stop holding our breath...


  1. oh olivia, i'm SO happy to read your very happy, wonderful news!!
    CONGRATULATIONS to you and your family!!

    (i love that song!)

    wishing you a beautiful pregnancy <3

  2. So happy for you and your family, Olivia! Jack and this new little one are blessed and lucky to have such an amazing mama :)

  3. Thank you so much Maria, you have always been a huge support to me.

    And Jennifer thank you, you are very sweet!

  4. <3 this made me cry <3 I pray for you and Joel a wonderful 30 more weeks! Just remember to breath! Smell the pizza... blow out the candles ;)
    Anthony and the 4 chick..ita bananas


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