“Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.”
I found myself googling "overwhelmed stay at home mom" today.
It talked about making sure you get alone time (uh, what's that?) and if you want to be a lot and give a lot, you have to refuel a lot. Meaning you need a lot of you time.
Where does that come in? I can't even fathom asking someone to watch Jack so I can get a massage or pedicure. My over-active mind quickly judged myself through that person's eyes... I was raised in a way that doing things like that for yourself is selfish. It's hard to break through walls like that.
I think I really need to start practicing positive thinking, and actively redirecting my mind when it slips into a negative mindset or starts the judging... I am horrible at judging myself through someone else's eyes.
The negative self-talk is getting old, and it's not something I want to pass onto Jack and Jude. It's not healthy. I want to think the best in every situation. So this is me saying I'm going to make this a habit... I want to change this.
To give myself some credit I'm a pretty positive person when it comes to my relationship with Joel. I've changed a lot of negative self-talk that could easily make me angry with him, but I've chosen to look at situations and small things with a positive spin and choosing not to get angry or think the worst. Somehow I've mastered this in our almost five years of marriage. It has made me a much happier person, and it's something I'm damn proud of... I don't see why I can't plug it into the other areas of my life as well.
So, while googling... I came across this website: thinksimplenow.com and it's ah-mazing! I honestly think it's just what I needed.
“If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it.”