If there's one good thing about facebook, it's the old posts that hold small memories that are easily forgotten. So once a week I've decided to travel back in time and find a gem to share :)
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Friday, June 22, 2012
Do you hear the crickets?
This post was longgg over-due... but I think it's good when life takes over occasionally and you do fall behind in other areas. Family always comes first in this house.
Last week our internet was shut off (opps!) for three days, and while it was a huge inconvenience, it was nice to have a cyber break. Sometimes I feel like God puts obstacles there on purpose, to force you to change, to slow down... to focus on something else. It forced me to pick-up a book, to write with pen and paper and to take a short break from client emails. The saying "blessing in disguise" has entered my mind more often than not lately.
A few posts back I was seriously stressing over a lot of things, nothing huge or major but the normal stresses of life. Everyone has tasks to accomplish, bills to pay, places to be, cars that break-down... I think at the end of the day it's important to look around and if you have family by your side, then that's all you need. Although, if you are a stay at home Mom I've realized lately I NEED to get out of this house! So if that happens again I will be leaning hard on others to come pick my ass up! :)~ I will be rude and invite myself over. I will call you and tell you I'm going crazy! (haha) I've also been learning a lot lately that I need to ask for help more. I need to call people and give them the chance to say "yes" or "no" and not just assume we will not fit into their life.
I've already made it known to a few family members that our baby situation is going to be kicked up a notch and at 32 weeks (I'm 30 weeks now) I'll be starting NST's (non-stress tests) twice weekly and hopefully I can lean on them for support and to take me occasionally when Joel's schedule does not allow him to be with me and to help with Jack. I may also need to see my diabetes counselor often in Dayton too, but I'm hoping I can just check in over the phone.
Yes, I said diabetes counselor.
I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes on Monday. I originally didn't want to tell a soul. I felt guilty. I felt like I caused this. I felt embarrassed. Before I failed, when I even mentioned the gestational diabetes test (which all pregnant women must take and is the #1 complication in pregnant women) someone said to me, "I thought you already had problems with that." And my brain turned it into... "they assume you have diabetes because of your weight." It didn't feel good.
And after the phone call Monday, confirming I failed the 3 hour glucose test... I spent a lot of time googling, and educating myself. Then I got up from the couch and I took a hot shower and I cried.
Cried because I felt like I could have prevented this. And as much truth as there is that I could have slightly lowered my chances, there are plenty of pregnant women who are health buffs and are being diagnosed with gestational diabetes all the time.
So that's my big skeleton I've been trying to keep shoved in the closet. But, after learning all the extra monitoring I'll have endure and also the major diet change that I started since Monday (I have never wanted a milkshake more in my life) I felt like I really need a few family members to know.
This is forcing me to eat really healthy, and I find since I'm doing it for not just for me, but someone else... it's much easier to stick to.
This maybe another blessing in disguise. It's causing me to slow down and focus completely on my health and this baby. And my hope is that the healthy eating habits, become just that- hardcore habits that stick with me even after this pregnancy.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
1. date nite
2. Why eat tiramisu when Joel orders a yummy apple caramel dessert?
3. fresh blueberries
4. going home
5. steak n shake
6. mmm shake
7. lil monster
8. flowers from Jack
9. baby belly
10. yawnnn... working late
11. lightning bugs
12. "look an alligator!" :)
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Tuesday, June 5, 2012
It's been pretty quiet around here...
I've been working like crazy and well, trying to care for a three year old and keep a house running with a growing belly. I get tired really easily. And yesterday, Joel pulled a towel from a clean laundry basket and another single towel fell on the floor next to it. And I hate to admit it, but that single towel made me a bit upset because I had to bend over and pick it up. I've been using my monkey toes a lot more lately. Yeah it's getting to that point. Not too much longer!
I'm 28 weeks now, but I'm pretty sure this baby will be here around week 37 like Jack. We have giant babies. Jack was almost 10lbs when he was born. So, I'm estimating 9 more weeks.
Wedding season is in full swing and I've been photographing weddings and engagement sessions left and right. My last wedding is at the end of this month and then a few loose stings in July and I'm on maternity leave.
Here's what I've been working on...
Joel was in the last wedding, he's the second from left to right. I thought he looked handsome :) It was his best friend's wedding.
*yawn* I'm tired!
We have a lot to do. We still haven't cleaned out the baby's room, and I hate to admit it, but I haven't bought this baby a single thing. And I want to make some freezer meals for when after the baby is born, oh and buy paper plates and cups (I know this isn't eco-friendly, it's keep me sane and my housework minimal). I also want to plan Jack's birthday before the baby is born and our anniversary because September will be the following month (after the baby is born) and I'd like to have those taken care of.
Oh and I still have to buy our cloth diaper stash, sign Jack up for swimming lessons and research homeschooling a preschooler... which I'm sure I'll cover in future blog posts :)
What are your summer plans? Anything you need to get done?