Sunday, July 8, 2012

three weeks

Today marks three weeks of my hardcore gestational diabetes diet.  The worst thing I've ate?  A single bite of the most delicious wedding cake I've ever had.  Of course my brother-in-law disagreed about it being the most delicious and I reminded him I really hadn't had sugar in three weeks.  Then I stared at the piece of cake... and said out loud, "hmm... since the server put it right in front of me, I guess I have to eat it?"  No one said anything.  Then I laughed and said, "How horrible would it be?"  Then my sister suggested eating just half... she is such a good sister, haha.  I then decided I couldn't do it, I've worked too hard and come too far.  I asked her to hide the piece of cake from me.  She gladly slid it to the other side of the table.  

I'm not going to lie, I thought about that piece of cake all night.

Besides that piece of cake, this diet is getting easier.

It's almost a hardcore habit and I'm so happy about that.  Obviously I will be put into hard situations like the wedding cake that was squarely placed in front of me by someone who doesn't know I can't eat it.  And today I got a little upset when Joel mentioned wanting to eat dinner at MayFlowers while we were in town (our favorite Chinese restaurant in the entire world) and I thought long and hard about it.  But everything that I would have consumed would have been pushing it, even with portion control.  I'm still scared to eat out, and really- I can't.  Not without knowing the real carb numbers spelled out.  You cannot eye something and know the nutritional information, you just can't.

Joel was crushed.  I was crushed.  I made us all a healthy dinner back at home.

Aside from those two difficult situations, I feel good about what I'm putting in my body.  I can't stress enough how awesome I feel since starting this diet.  I am 32 weeks pregnant and my only complaint is back pain.  It's actually strange to me when someone asks, "How are you feeling?"  The first words out of my mouth are, "Great, I really feel good."  I use to rattle off a whole list of things starting with how tired I was.

You are what you eat.

That being said, I'm not exactly happy that my blog is a food blog right now... but that is my life in this moment.  I poke my finger and test my blood four times a day.  I sit down at a computer and type in foods before I put them in my mouth to make sure the numbers are exactly where they need to be.  I have a food log that dates back three weeks, incase I get a high blood sugar reading and I can go back and see why, or my doctors if they request it.  Six times a day I have to ask myself what would be the healthiest option for meals and snacks.

It's my life right now.

And as much I want to carry this diet with me forever, it will be so freeing to able to go to a wedding and let myself enjoy a single piece of cake!

1 comment:

  1. You're awesome, Olivia!!
    You have such strength and will...I really admire that!
    In a couple months, you deserve a huge and amazing slice of that cake!!
    Thinking of you and sending positive thoughts!

    P.S. - thank you for your comment the other day! It made me :)

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