Jack & Jude on "Christmas Eve"
We celebrated the night before because of Joel's work schedule.
Milk & cookies we baked for Santa, and carrot slices for the reindeer.
Our Christmas morning came and we celebrated together as a family.
Joel & Jude "Christmas Morning"
Joel got home early, and instead of waiting for the boys to wake us up...
Joel was excited...
together we went to wake up Jack.
sleepy Jack #ignorethemess
Christmas Eve day was our Christmas.
Wooo a balloon pumper! The ONLY thing Jack asked for. It was $3.
Jude's 1st baby ornament!
Ugh... I really wish I hadn't worn Joel's free gamer shirt (he got it the night he bought Black OPS II) to bed.
Our beautiful gift this year... Judy Booty!
Here's some salmon Mom! (Yes salmon; thanks Ikea!)
A flower balloon in a mason jar from Joel.
After gifts we had orange rolls, sausage and chocolate milk together.
I was so excited this year... so pumped and then it came and it wasn't at all like I had put together in my mind.
I actually had about 10 paragraphs wrote out before I decided some things are better left unsaid.
I was reminded that we live in an imperfect world. Nothing will ever be perfect...
It's hard doing this alone.
I feel guilty when I don't organize or plan things so it goes smoothly when Joel has that small window of opportunity to be with the people he loves.
It's hard going to family things alone with two young boys in tow. It's hard sleeping alone. It's hard leaving family events with my parents instead of my husband.
It's even harder when people judge you.